I am a habitual try-er. Somewhere in my history I picked up this defining habit of trying harder. It has become this vice-grip on my life. When I feel like I am underachieving I take a deep breath, tighten the vice and I…
It squeezes me, making me feel increasingly more pressure. Slowly, turn by turn, it begins to crush me. I realize how futile this kind of living is. It becomes futile to every aspect of my life and at the center is my spiritual life.
A life of trying is futile because everything I do in life is about what I can do. The more I live this “try harder” life, the more I realize how incapable to the task I am.
This “try harder” problem I have is probably the most frustrating aspect of my life. Unfortunately when I find myself trying harder, everything in me wants to try harder to stop trying harder!
Am I crazy? Am I the only one struggling with this habit? Where do you find yourself?