I find myself in a holding pattern right now. I know where I want to be and I can easily make a case it’s where I need to be.
But, that’s not where I am.
For whatever reason, I am still here, not there.
But, I am convinced there IS a reason.
It is so easy to make things about me, about how I feel, what I want, what I need. Yesterday, I was reminded AGAIN, it’s not about me.
I went to my small group (I love my LIFEhouse, they are so awesome!). We spent time at the end praying and I could feel myself getting cranky and irritable over the fact that I wouldn’t be where I think I should be.
After group, I went for a run and instead of listening to my usual worship music, I felt like listening to a message podcast. I opened my podcast app and just started a random podcast.
and the quote that stuck out to me and the one I can’t shake from my mind is…
Be more concerned with God’s glory than your release from your current situation. @hollyfurtick
Wow, God! I realized that even though this situation that I find myself in is fairly new, I have already spent way too much time wishing my circumstances away. While I was doing all my whining I’ve been missing all the opportunities to glorify God in the midst of it all.
It’s not about me.
Why do I have such a difficult time remembering that and putting it into practice? Oh, humanity. We are so frail and so broken, and we seem to do the most damage to ourselves.
It has always been and always will be about Him.
My purpose is clear, to glorify Him in everything. He has a purpose for this time that I cannot see or appreciate right now, but I can always appreciate Him. I can always praise Him. I need my focus to be sure. I need to stay centered on Him.