I find myself in a holding pattern right now. I know where I want to be and I can easily make a case it’s where I need to be.
But, that’s not where I am.
For whatever reason, I am still here, not there.
But, I am convinced there IS a reason.
It is so easy to make things about me, about how I feel, what I want, what I need. Yesterday, I was reminded AGAIN, it’s not about me.
I went to my small group (I love my LIFEhouse, they are so awesome!). We spent time at the end praying and I could feel myself getting cranky and irritable over the fact that I wouldn’t be where I think I should be.
After group, I went for a run and instead of listening to my usual worship music, I felt like listening to a message podcast. I opened my podcast app and just started a random podcast.
The message that came on was from Elevation Church in Charlotte, NC and the message title was “Waiting Room: If I have to wait, I’m gonna get to work.”
and the quote that stuck out to me and the one I can’t shake from my mind is…
Be more concerned with God’s glory than your release from your current situation. @hollyfurtick
Wow, God! I realized that even though this situation that I find myself in is fairly new, I have already spent way too much time wishing my circumstances away. While I was doing all my whining I’ve been missing all the opportunities to glorify God in the midst of it all.
It’s not about me.
Why do I have such a difficult time remembering that and putting it into practice? Oh, humanity. We are so frail and so broken, and we seem to do the most damage to ourselves.
It has always been and always will be about Him.
My purpose is clear, to glorify Him in everything. He has a purpose for this time that I cannot see or appreciate right now, but I can always appreciate Him. I can always praise Him. I need my focus to be sure. I need to stay centered on Him.
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2 responses to “Looking past”
Jason, I am impressed with the depth of your thoughts. It is apparent that you truly are a lover of Christ. Always remember that TIMING is of utmost importance where God is concerned. You are at the right place at the right time in your walk. You carry a strong influence and believe it or not, you are making an unforgettable impression for Christ in your everyday life. You are frustrated because of the call on your life and you may feel that circumstances has cheated you out of the life that you felt God had called you to. That calling of God is without repentence, your Heavenly Father is not sorry He called you, He also KNEW the events that would take place in your life and throw you a bit off track. He was not the least bit surprised that you became a single parent. No, He knows all of the pitfalls and setbacks that are sure to come into our lives, but He still has a purpose and we still have a destiny. You are being prepared to walk into th
at destiny! So be encouraged in the Lord, for He is making straight your path. In a while, everything will begin to fall into place and make sense. Right now is a time for growth and character building, accept it for what it is and move forward, encouraging others along the way, pointing them to Christ.
May the kiss of heaven rest on your life.
Sara Hall
Thanks Sara! I really appreciate your words.